"It's not the grudge," Avery growls out in frustration, but doesn't elaborate. He gets it. He understands the grudge. He does. But that's not the only thing there and it's so maddening, trying to understand all of that and himself and everything else in a world that's flipped upside down and seems determined to make him question everything about who he's supposed to be in it.
He's not a hero though. More and more, he's certain he never has been.
He doesn't feel like thinking about this anymore.
"Hey," he says after a moment, wiping away the bleeding cut on his throat with the back of his sleeve. "You ever consider gardening?"
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The question catches him so off-guard that he answers completely normally.
"No. I can't say I have." A pause. "Did you want to make one? I suppose there's plenty of space for it, if you do."
He can't say he really objects to the idea. He might own this ruin, technically, but there's no end to the amount of space he's left alone to do as it pleases, with mixed results.
Avery shrugs. "Might as well. Makes it easier to have different types of food on hand, I'd think. And weeding would take care of that hunger of yours quite handily."
"Very well." He still sounds stiff, displeased, but he's not exactly angry any more. Sort of. Maybe. "It's not an objectionable idea, I suppose."
Ekkehardt sighs, pulling out another clump of weeds. They wither almost instantly in his hands; he wonders, vaguely, if it's because surging emotions have made the creature inside more active.
He wasn't this hungry before Avery came here. Then again, it's not as if hunger was much of a priority for him regardless. He'd been good at tempering it, a sort of ruthless management to prove...something. That he could still control some part of himself, even as his emotions spiralled out of his grasp.
"Just be patient," he says, and it's almost an apology. "It's not as if I'm going to throw you out, so you don't need to fret about that."
Avery leans against the shovel handle, resting his chin on top of his hands. "You could at least pretend," he almost says, but immediately realizes that he'd like that even less.
"Never been good at being patient," he admits with an almost childish pout.
"This is abundantly obvious," he retorts, the response almost immediate. He has to bite back a laugh at Avery's pout, annoyed at the fact he can even laugh about much of anything these days.
Avery amuses him. Lightens the heavy burden he was responsible for putting onto him in the first place, and he finds that cosmically unfair in some hard-to-define way.
"You've never had to wait for anything in your life, have you?"
He slips a hand free from is prison beneath his chin and tilts it from side to side. "Yes and no. Mother tried, of course, but I've always been the sort to take matters into my own hands if I needed to." He chuckles.
"What an unusual hero," he says, after a moment, and leaves it at that. After a moment, he goes back to rearranging the garden plot to his satisfaction, the tension in his body language lessening somewhat as he works. He seems to take to it well, despite not having though about it before.
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He's not a hero though. More and more, he's certain he never has been.
He doesn't feel like thinking about this anymore.
"Hey," he says after a moment, wiping away the bleeding cut on his throat with the back of his sleeve. "You ever consider gardening?"
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"No. I can't say I have." A pause. "Did you want to make one? I suppose there's plenty of space for it, if you do."
He can't say he really objects to the idea. He might own this ruin, technically, but there's no end to the amount of space he's left alone to do as it pleases, with mixed results.
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Ekkehardt sighs, pulling out another clump of weeds. They wither almost instantly in his hands; he wonders, vaguely, if it's because surging emotions have made the creature inside more active.
He wasn't this hungry before Avery came here. Then again, it's not as if hunger was much of a priority for him regardless. He'd been good at tempering it, a sort of ruthless management to prove...something. That he could still control some part of himself, even as his emotions spiralled out of his grasp.
"Just be patient," he says, and it's almost an apology. "It's not as if I'm going to throw you out, so you don't need to fret about that."
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"Never been good at being patient," he admits with an almost childish pout.
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Avery amuses him. Lightens the heavy burden he was responsible for putting onto him in the first place, and he finds that cosmically unfair in some hard-to-define way.
"You've never had to wait for anything in your life, have you?"
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"Always worth the punishment afterwards though."
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